Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera everyone!
Well as usual
im waiting for semester break for updating my blog. Hehe so here im on my
semester break (read as internship) yeahhhhhhh im on internship right now.
Hahaha im posting this entry during my internship at the office cause I don’t
have any work to do and my boss is away so I think it is okay (kot?) But what
ever I dah sapu sampah pagi tadi and all task given dah siap pun. Hahahah And
oh ya I forget to tell you gais that this is my second day of intern and I dah
naik kepala (kot?) hehe. So im going to intern here for about two months from
23 January till 17 march, well hoping that it will going smoothly.
So basically
im here in my blog not going to just tell about progression in my life (?) hehe
Back to the point “andartu” thingy. So as you guys might counting my age, im
now turning 22 (im feeling twenty two-taylorswift) in 2017. Oh wait, I forget
once again to wish happy new year! Happy 2017! Hope its not too late kan (?)
Well andartu, the words that scared every little single women in this world!! Which
is that including me! Yeahhh me.
As my previous
post, ive mention Amir my secret crush, but then few months back I found out
that he now already had a girlfriend which is my friend. So what a life, moved
on. As the process of moved on, I met another little charming prince, Ammar.
Its so funny, when actually he was my senior and one of my friend’s boyfriend’s
friend. Get me? So from there I know him better, hm not better but I know him
more and turns out jeng jeng jeng, he had already a girlfriend too. Blah blah
blah. And now he is graduating degree oledy nahh so moved on again.
Its freaking
2017 and im freaking 22!! Im so fucking scared that I get no one to marry. Like
all my close friend already have a boyfriend, my high school friend already
have tunang and husband. Like TF?! I beign just potato here. I don’t know I
can’t imagine like im gonna be andartu in future. I know some might have in mind
that yow its only 22, just enjoy the life bruh! You still you go achieve your
goals! Belaja sampai tinggi langit baru kahwin! Jadi kaya dulu baru kahwin! Humph,
I don’t know why I felt like this. Hormone and environment? (Kot?)
But when thinking
of building a family, that much actually make me scared too. Yaa, its like you
gotta have a lot more responsibility to carry. Your husdband and housework
thingy. And plus if you ada rezeki awal, might have a child. Like whatttt ? (
meme face ) So I just don’t know. I might not 100 percent ready, but at certain
point, I just want to hold all that responsible like hey responsible come to
me! Show yourself I can handle it lah! Hahaha i am confusion as heck, am i? I
just wanna feel needed. Going back home or class, there will be someone cares
on me. Macam tanya u dah makan? u nak i teman makan tak? u sihat? Hows your
day? Its everything alright? and I really want someone to laugh at my joke,
listen to all my story or just even I want to hear someone story too that prove
im needed by someone. u feel?
Its just so
hard. So damn f hard. Ive come across to this quote whereby we shouldn’t have
to find. “Stop find, improve yourself. When the time comes, he will come
without you searching” Nah now im not like mcm search kat web cari jodoh ke apa
but still he is not here! Not even have on my contact list! I am scared freaking scared! Ada kat sini yg
sudi jadi teman? Hahah dapat teman makan je pun jadilah sbb all my friend tak suka
mkn and im that person yg suka makan. Sampai kadang kadang dr Seremban pergi
Nilai untuk cari ice cream je, sbb ice cream di Nilai lebih bernilai! Adiozza!
